Grudge

The dreamers in this dream, stuck in the fiction they are the people they insist they are, operate in a context of grudge, from some of the time to all of the time. Before you wake up, and mind still features you stuck in the lie right now is real, and not the dream mind is dreaming, you notice that the majority of the dreamers are angry, but amnesia successfully obscures the fact the dreamers in this dream are upset because they know, at some pre-conscious level of knowing, that nothing they do in the dream has any chance to prove they are the person they portray in this dream.

The dream reveals that amnesia tries to obscure the fact truth is absolute so the dreamers in the dream can pursue the fiction something will eventually work to prove truth is false. Grudge provides indirect evidence that the dreamers know, in spite of amnesia’s efficiency, “the option to prove truth is false is zero.” What never changes is our status as dreamers in this dream. The dream dictates that we can’t modify or alter who or what we are one iota. Because truth is absolute, everyone is a dreamer in this dream, transparently displaying where they are with that fact, somewhere between acceptance and rejection, and all degrees of delusionality between these two extremes.

Almost no dreamer in this dream wants to know they are angry because truth is absolute. Amnesia shields the dreamers from the fact that’s the source of all anger. No dreamer in this dream is, or can prove it is, a person. Amnesia shields the dreamer from the fact truth is absolute so it can fill time with the fiction it’s possible to prove the dreamer is a person. This defines “The Main Event” in this dream. The dream features TAG, or the sum of all the ways the dreamers fill time with the fiction they are people, and not dreamers in the dream impersonating people. A dreamer wakes up in this dream when it accepts the fact it is a dreamer defending the fiction it is a person in this dream.

The imaginary gap between the truth and the lie equals humor. What’s funny is the fact that, because this is a dream, there is no way a dreamer in this dream can prove it is a person. As dreamers, what makes us funny is our commitment to the lie what we do in the dream will prove truth is false. No dreamer in a dream, obviously, has any chance to prove it is a person, having a life outside the dream. If right now is the dream mind is dreaming, then, if you occupy space, you are in it displaying the sum of what you do in the dream to insist right now isn’t a dream and that you aren’t included in the dream.

What’s even funnier is the fact that’s what mind features the dreamers doing in this dream. In the absence of people, this being a dream, who exists to run the personhood parody they display in the dream? In the guise of people, dreamers can be heard to say, “I will give up pretending suffering will prove I am a person by friday.” Waking up happens in the dream when the dreamer views right now accurately as the dream mind is dreaming, including TAG, or all the ways the dreamers fill time pretending it’s possible to prove truth is false.

TAG displays the intensity of the dreamer’s grudge for the fact truth is absolute, from not at all, to all the time. Because right now is the dream mind is dreaming, only the dreamers in the dream hate the fact truth is absolute because if truth is absolute then the game of TAG is a mind generated farce. Wei Wu Wei makes this point repeatedly: we are in the dream “clowning around.” Right now is the dream mind is dreaming, which means there are no people doing anything at all, ever. The dreamer’s grudge is justified in the dream because it already knows this dream can’t include people, only dreamers in the dream clinging to the fiction they will eventually prove they are people. Is the grudge for the fact truth is absolute, or for the fact the dream features the dreamers pursuing the fiction they can prove they are people when that’s impossible?

When you wake up, you know you are in the dream, in the presence of dreamers displaying where they are in the dream with the fact truth is absolute. Grudge is a clear sign the dream features the dreamers relying on trance and amnesia to obscure truth so they can pursue the fiction it’s possible to prove right now is real and not a dream, and that the dreamer is the person it insists it is. As a rule, what works best to maintain the fiction truth is false is reiterated suffering. As a rule, the last thing a dreamer in the dream wants to know is that it keeps the lie in place it is a ‘tragic figure’ with suffering, as if suffering exists outside the dream. Truth, upstream of the fiction duality is real, reveals that nothing exists outside the dream, which means the dream is always what right now is. The dream accurately displays how much a dreamer in this dream relies on reiterated suffering in defense of the lie it’s possible to prove truth is false.

Grudge is the sign the dreamer knows nothing it does in the dream has any chance to prove truth is false. When a dreamer wakes up, it even views ‘grudge’ accurately as content in the dream. The dream features how much the dreamers hate the fact truth is absolute. The dream features how the dreamers count on amnesia to keep truth obscure so they can fill time pursuing the fiction it’s still possible to prove truth is false. In Sanskrit, this is what Samsara is all about. The dream mind is dreaming is ‘on,’ as usual, featuring how the dreamers drag out the fiction it’s possible to prove truth is false, as if that’s possible. Dreamers use the suffering that goes with defending the lie it’s possible to prove truth is false as proof for the lie it’s still possible to prove truth is false. The graphic here is ‘the dog chasing its own tail.’

“The Recovery Process” assists the dreamer to identify that grudge goes with knowing, albeit unconsciously, that anger, in the absence of people, has nothing to do with people. Dreamers can’t know they are only ‘at war with truth,’ and only as an event in the dream, and keep grudge in place as proof for the lie a real person was damaged by real people, or real events. No dreamer in the dream can run “The Victim Parody” convincingly without keeping grudge in place as proof for the lie someone has something wrong with them. The last thing a dreamer wants to know in this dream is that because this is a dream, there is no one to have anything wrong with them. Dreamers can’t defend the lie they are people in this dream without the grudge that goes with the lie they are ‘damaged people.’

When you track down the onset of grudge in the dream, it always takes you to the moment in the dream when the dreamer got a glimpse of the fact control doesn’t exist because there is no one to have it. It saw for a second that right now is only a dream; there are no people, so there is no one in fact to have anything wrong with them. In that instant, the dream featured the dreamer making the event real in order to defend the lie a real person was damaged by a real event outside the dream. This often sets the dye for the parody the dreamer occupies for the duration of its appearance in the dream.

The shift from the truth to the lie signals the creation of duality in the dream. There is no duality if mind is dreaming everything just the way it manifests, including the dreamer creating duality to defend the fiction a real someone was damaged by a real event. Grudge locks in the lie “The Victim Parody” is real and not the parody the dreamer will use, over and over again, to defend the lie it is a ‘damaged person.’ Without grudge, the lie someone exists to be a victim is always in jeopardy. The dreamer’s “personhood parody” reflects the degree to which it relies on grudge to do personhood believably in the dream. The last thing a dreamer wants to retrieve is that grudge works in the dream to maintain the lie the dreamer is a ‘damaged person.’ We cling to grudge because it anchors the dreamer’s identity as an authentic ‘tragic figure.’ On closer inspection, what you see is that dreamers hate the fact truth is absolute more than the fact not even reiterated suffering can prove a real someone has something wrong with them.

TAG accurately displays the dreamer’s attachment to the fiction grudge is proof the dreamer is the person it insists it is in the dream. At low levels it is comedic, but as TAG increases, duality increases, and the dreamer’s defense of the lie it is a victim depends on grudge for authenticity. This is a moment in the dream when comedy turns into tragedy: the dreamer depends on the lie grudge is real to justify revenge and violence, sometimes in the form of random retribution. Grudge is the backbone of the lie right now is real. The lie the dreamer is a ‘not okay person’ depends on the lie grudge is people-based, and not a sign we know it isn’t possible to prove truth is false. In the light of truth, grudge is viewed accurately as the prop dreamers count on to pretend it’s possible to prove truth is false.

It’s not possible to have a quality life in the dream and keep grudge in place as real, simultaneously. Waking up occurs in the dream when a dreamer realizes it relies on grudge to defend the lie someone exists outside the dream to have something wrong with them. Liberation from the lie grudge is real is revelatory in the dream.

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